I must admit, I was always a shy child, always insecure about something. I did really well to hide the dark cloud for most of my childhood. Looking back now, I think I was an easy target for bullies in school because I was extremely sensitive and anxious.
Even though I spent most of my childhood in an anxious state, it wasn’t until my teenage years when I really experienced intense suffering. I think a lot of the emotional pain was built up due to the death of a loved one and a pet, this happened very sudden and my emotional wellness took a crumble.
I was really shocked because I didn’t know what on earth was happening to me, it just got worse and worse. I stopped seeing people, I stopped visiting different places, even just speaking to people on the phone and texting people seemed pretty scary. It was hell!
I was even worried about trivial things, things which were completely irrelevant to anything, I just didn’t worry about anything like that before.
People were really surprised about how I went from being active, energetic, talkative and enjoying life to being completely cut off from most things.
I was in college at the time of my spell with high anxiety and I was really enjoying the course, it was a sport course which I was thoroughly interested in.
Eventually I just had to call it quits and leave the course which I was extremely frustrated with. But I just couldn’t seem to concentrate or cope with anything and going to college was terrifying, at least it looked that way to me.
I also left two or three more courses which I was really enjoying due to my mental health issues. I think my issues got worse simply because I wasn’t living in acceptance of them and not dealing with them in the appropriate way. (I later learnt from a method which I’ll mention shortly that creating structure in your life drives out the anxiety).
I was just wishing the anxiety to be gone, like you would do because it seemed pretty normal to fight against anxiety. However this natural but totally counter-productive approach just strengthened my fears and made the clouds darker.
My family were in complete desperation for obvious reasons and my dad decided to purchase a trusted anxiety elimination program after spending his evenings for a couple of weeks looking for alternative therapies. I’m now an anxiety recovery practitioner for this methodology. See my coaching page here.
Before finding this method, I visited the doctors, mental health therapists, counselors, CBT practitioners, EFT practitioners, hypnotherapists, had talking therapy sessions and so on. None of these things actually provided me with a way to overcome my problems, even with consistent practice of the techniques included.
Now that I am free from the core of the anxiety, It is like waking up from a nightmare, it’s finally over. Such relief to say the least.
Understanding that you are not alone when it comes to suffering from anxiety is a massive is reassuring. Understanding that anxiety and panic attacks are completely harmless is empowering and allows us to release a lot of fear.
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